well then. the day is almost finally here. i feel like ive talked about it for soooo long. and tomorrow im finally moving with tanner to malibu, california :o
im so excited and just ready for this new adventure that life has put me on. its been one hell of a journey but im happy. so fucking happy.
paris was amazing. didnt stay as long as we thought but thats okay! we got to see the eiffel tower! i think one of the best parts was the love lock bridge. buying a lock. writing our names on it (he wrote mine, i wrote his) and then locking it to the bridge; and throwing the key into the water. was just romantic and symbolized a lot for me.
ive found that person that makes me happy, and i cant help but smile when i think about him or see him. i am so lucky, and am still asking why do i deserve him and such happiness, after what ive been through. like before i can say i was alive but not living… as sad as that sounds it was so true. i can now say im alive and living and loving every moment.
im with the man that i will spend the rest of my life with. i know that. locking our lock onto the love lock bridge and throwing that key, i will remember for the rest of my life.
from now on, im gonna try real real hard to be a classy, sophisticated, fancy and fabulous (semi ratchet) bish. instead of just ratchet. xD im excited to be able to run on the beach every morning and just settle in. this year has been a huge turning point in my life; for the better!
im 23. proud. and one bad ass boss bish; and slayer of any basic bitch that tries me. ive found the man that can handle every single amount of sass i have. which is a feat in itself. lets be honest, my sass lvl is on like a 12 most of the time.
ive learned a lot this year. about myself, and im actually a lot stronger than i gave myself credit for. i think there is probably wedding bells in my future.
as my home gurl cab put it awhile back, “there aint nothing but hairflips, sunshine and motherfucking rainbows where i walk”. on a side note, CAB YOU ARE WALKING ME DOWN THE ISLE AND WE ARE GONNA STRUT TO “IM A BOSS ASS BITCH” playing in the background. cause you know, just as well as i do. we are some classy fancy bish’s.
I am so super late in seeing this. BUT I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU! <3 AND I AM SO ENVIOUS OF YOUR MEDITATIVE BEACH WALKS AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL LOCK-BRIDGE TRIP!
You deserve so much joy, and I am thrilled beyond words that you are so happy. GOD, I AM GETTING TEARY-EYED. (That’s why they invented waterproof mascara, bless) You are strong, sassy, passionate, and loyal. You have all of my love and support. I am happy that Tanner treats you like the royalty you are. VERY EXCITED FOR THIS NEW CHAPTER IN YOUR LIFE. <3
ILU, BB! WE WILL TWERK IT, COAST TO COAST!
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I have no interest in pity. Sympathy is fine, but I am not seeking it.
This blog is about my life, my humor, my passions, my pup, and my hardships. It is a positive, honest place. Illness is a huge part of my life. I talk about it when it is appropriate and I try to use my voice to help others with chronic and mental illness. I talk about my struggles, but I try to keep complaining to a minimum and I try to keep a positive outlook even when things are dire. Most people seem to appreciate that.
I will admit that when I write things for my blog I can present the best version of myself. I can be profounder, humbler, and wiser than if I was having a spontaneous conversation with someone. But you are free to ask those who know me best. This blog, my words, my ideas… they are very much me. Just with a bit of spit & polish for public consumption.